As most of you knew I was scheduled for an MRI on Monday evening and then an interpretation by my oncologist (brain) today. Unfortunately, I was overwhelmed with anxiety and fear when placed on the table for the test. I have severe claustrophobia … especially without strong sedation. I had even taken two (2) attivan to calm me, but those meds did not help a bit. I was forced to remove myself from the table with anxiety and did not complete the MRI. So, we are waiting to reschedule another MRI with sedation in the next day or so, though time is running out with the holiday, etc.
Please continue to pray for direction from MDA, relief from leg pain, complications from chemo/radiation, general weakness, fear, and willingness to accept the reality that this cancer is terminal and my time is limited at this point.
If we are able to reschedule the MRI, please pray:
–the time they can do it fits my schedule;
–they can schedule the MRI with strong sedation;
–the MRI will reveal clearly where we stand with the alive cancer cells; and
–the test gives a clear picture of the protocol needed next for healing
I love you dearly and am so blessed to call you friend.
Blessings!
Papa Steve
My faith looks up to thee
Thou Lamb of Calvary
Savior divine!
Now hear me while I pray
Take all my guilt away
O let me from this day
Be wholly thine!
May Thy rich grace impart
Strength to my fainting heart
My zeal inspire!
As Thou hast died for me
O may my love to Thee
Pure, warm, and changeless be
A living fire!
While life’s dark maze I tread,
And griefs around me spread,
Be Thou my guide;
Bid darkness turn to day
Wipe sorrow’s tears away
Nor let me ever stray
From thee aside.
When ends life’s transient dream
When death’s cold, sullen stream
Shall o’er me roll;
Blest Savior, then in love
Fear and distrust remove
O bear me safe above
A ransomed soul!
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