I think clearer at night. I always have. My planning, my studying, my most creative times have been in my office where it was quiet and God could speak to me most clearly. (I know you all thought all of my great ideas came right off the top of my head.) Well, most of my greatest ideas came in the dark of night, when everything was still, and I could hear HIS voice. Hearing that voice would give me an urgency, and fortunately or unfortunately for my staff, this urgency couldn’t come to fruition fast enough.
Last night, I was asking to hear that voice again. For several days, I’ve been thinking, considering, and praying for the decision to accept the cancer trial or not. I have decided to fight this cancer with all I can muster. Given the option of a target therapy, we will embrace the trial and take whatever comes our way.
I do have things that I haven’t said. I do want the extended chance to take back my life from cancer, and I do have this opportunity to live life to the fullest, however long that will be. “To live is Christ and to die is gain.” Do not misunderstand my desire to live, for “I know what awaits me.” For I also am hard-pressed from both directions. There is JOY to be found in the Lord no matter what my circumstances.
Please continue to pray for me. That is the best medicine for me right now. I cannot tell you how it soothes my soul. Calling the church for prayer is Biblical, and I thank you with all my heart that you seek HIS face on my behalf. (Phillippians 1)
This song by Rachel Platten is perfect … be sure to listen to it as you’re scrolling through the words. You’ll find the link beneath these lyrics:
Fight Song
Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m all right song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
In too deep
Say I’m in too deep (in too deep)
And it’s been two years
I miss my home
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe
And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m all right song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
A lot of fight left in me
Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
This is my fight song (Hey!)
Take back my life song (Hey!)
Prove I’m all right song (Hey!)
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong (I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
No I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
Click on the image below to listen to …
[ A Fight to the Finish ] And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we’ll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels. Ephesians 6:10-12
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